Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
Friday, October 18, 2013
Why the Blog?
I started this blog, because I felt the Lord was about to do a BIG thing in our family. Not only to share with our close friends and family, but I wanted this journey to be documented for our little Max.
I want Max to be able to look at this one day and see how special he is, and how our great God had his little life planned out from the beginning. I want him to have access to all the little details that I might forget.
I am not the greatest at putting my thoughts on paper... but I will try my best.
We have a lot of waiting to do... this is just the beginning. I already love you so much, Max. Jesus will hold you until I can.
I want Max to be able to look at this one day and see how special he is, and how our great God had his little life planned out from the beginning. I want him to have access to all the little details that I might forget.
I am not the greatest at putting my thoughts on paper... but I will try my best.
We have a lot of waiting to do... this is just the beginning. I already love you so much, Max. Jesus will hold you until I can.
Thoughts...
Jason is out of town deer hunting tonight. Anne Riley is asleep. All is quiet... Except the thoughts in my head...
I am thinking about our child in China.
Funny how God works sometimes. I beg Him to make the desires of MY heart HIS desires. Boy did He come through on that one!
See... Again, I say, this taking a leap of faith and surrendering to the calling of adoption... It's HIS plan. It wasn't ours'. It took a good bit of battling it out between us.
Now that we've said "yes", I have the greatest peace I have ever known. It feels SO right. This is what we are supposed to do. Without a doubt. I don't know the end to this story, but my Heavenly Father does.
Want to hear something else crazy?
I feel that our child will be a boy, and his name is Max. How do I know this? I don't know! I just feel it. I've felt it from the beginning. God speaks in many crazy ways, persistant thoughts, dreams, etc.
My very first thoughts of adopting, I kept picturing a boy. Boy after boy. As most girls do, I was thinking of cute names for a boy... the first one that came to me was Max. I see a little Chinese boy named "Max". I thought of more names, but I keep coming back to Max. We'll see how this turns out in the end :)
Other thoughts...
Sometimes, when I am telling a friend for the first time that we are starting the adoption process, I get a twinge of negativity that runs through my head. My thoughts are, I bet they think we are adopting because it's the new TREND... seems like so many people are adopting these days. I hope they don't think we are doing this for attention, and not the right motives. Sometimes I wonder if people believe me when I tell them we feel "called". If you've never been called by God to do something, you really can't understand it!
I worry too much about what others think. Period.
I shouldn't care. I know we are doing this because God asked us to. I would have never just planned this up on my own!
I am chosing to let go of those evil thoughts. Doubts and worries, they are not from God.
I was reminded of this verse this past week:
"Taste and see that the Lord is GOOD. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in Him!"
I have TASTED... and it is GOOD. No turning back. No turning back.
I am thinking about our child in China.
Funny how God works sometimes. I beg Him to make the desires of MY heart HIS desires. Boy did He come through on that one!
See... Again, I say, this taking a leap of faith and surrendering to the calling of adoption... It's HIS plan. It wasn't ours'. It took a good bit of battling it out between us.
Now that we've said "yes", I have the greatest peace I have ever known. It feels SO right. This is what we are supposed to do. Without a doubt. I don't know the end to this story, but my Heavenly Father does.
Want to hear something else crazy?
I feel that our child will be a boy, and his name is Max. How do I know this? I don't know! I just feel it. I've felt it from the beginning. God speaks in many crazy ways, persistant thoughts, dreams, etc.
My very first thoughts of adopting, I kept picturing a boy. Boy after boy. As most girls do, I was thinking of cute names for a boy... the first one that came to me was Max. I see a little Chinese boy named "Max". I thought of more names, but I keep coming back to Max. We'll see how this turns out in the end :)
Other thoughts...
Sometimes, when I am telling a friend for the first time that we are starting the adoption process, I get a twinge of negativity that runs through my head. My thoughts are, I bet they think we are adopting because it's the new TREND... seems like so many people are adopting these days. I hope they don't think we are doing this for attention, and not the right motives. Sometimes I wonder if people believe me when I tell them we feel "called". If you've never been called by God to do something, you really can't understand it!
I worry too much about what others think. Period.
I shouldn't care. I know we are doing this because God asked us to. I would have never just planned this up on my own!
I am chosing to let go of those evil thoughts. Doubts and worries, they are not from God.
I was reminded of this verse this past week:
"Taste and see that the Lord is GOOD. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in Him!"
I have TASTED... and it is GOOD. No turning back. No turning back.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Long list of to-do's!
A quick update:
We are in the beginnings of gathering mounds of paperwork needed to complete our dossier and homestudy.
We should be through with our face-to-face homestudy meetings with our social worker tomorrow! Yay! That is a huge check off our list.
I have contacted several CCAI adoptive familes from Mississippi and it has been awesome hearing their stories. I am craving any and all info I can get. I especially LOVE seeing pictures of their adopted children.
Sometimes I wonder to myself "what on earth are you doing?", "are you really going to go through with this?", "you already have so much trouble keeping Anne Riley under control!"...
I was talking to Jason last night about this. The Spirit quickly reminds me that this idea of adopting a child, it was God's. He started this. I have no room for worries about such things, because I know my God is Greater. My God is Stronger. He will provide everything we need.
We are in the beginnings of gathering mounds of paperwork needed to complete our dossier and homestudy.
We should be through with our face-to-face homestudy meetings with our social worker tomorrow! Yay! That is a huge check off our list.
I have contacted several CCAI adoptive familes from Mississippi and it has been awesome hearing their stories. I am craving any and all info I can get. I especially LOVE seeing pictures of their adopted children.
Sometimes I wonder to myself "what on earth are you doing?", "are you really going to go through with this?", "you already have so much trouble keeping Anne Riley under control!"...
I was talking to Jason last night about this. The Spirit quickly reminds me that this idea of adopting a child, it was God's. He started this. I have no room for worries about such things, because I know my God is Greater. My God is Stronger. He will provide everything we need.
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